The video above was something I saw when it aired on tv. Me being a black male in Tallahassee, FL, I have seen acts of racism, acts of love, acts of uncalled for hate, from a handful of races. From Black to Caucasian, Asian, Hispanic, Indian, and Native American. Each example from each race. Love and Hate.
(Before I continue, I must admit I have in each way whether directly or indirectly, acted that way towards another race. Whether it's in thoughts, intuition, or in a joking manner, I have been both positive and negative towards other races.)
Being involved with a large number of people I have seen white people who love black people, I have had people in my family marry white people. I have be victim to being prejudged for the color of my skin. I also have been treated with respect from other races. I have friends & family who openly do not like white people. Which I honestly feel desensitized from feeling bad when they speak negatively because of me hearing it all my life. It's like the feeling of (thats just how they think). Which I am never going to say is correct. I also believe that the problem stems from disconnect with respect, honesty, and communication. My opinion comes from me going through many things in my life with me noticing on a large scale that most people do not care about how others feel. What I would call the (in the corner syndrome). Not saying everyone, but most people I have encountered when the sense of being threaten, they automatically go in to defense mode aka back themselves in a corner. Which is a human thing to do. Me newly understanding my flaws, feeling like I know how someone feels and thinks, I have prejudged people based on how I think they would feel. (Which I am slightly still unsure when I should use my awareness on my opinion with people.) 24 years of my life I did a large amount of things without asking questions. Which I have learned through having more conversations this past year that many people do it on a regular basis without thinking about it. Which is my first solution to solving the problems we face on earth is that we should find out how and why people feel the way they do without judging. I feel like the people in mass power know the answers and do their best to control the outcome. Which I believe we have to take more control of it ourselves, educate ourselves, and share with others. With that R word "Respect".
(Do your best to keep the word respect in mind as I continue.)
Being lied to is one of the worst feelings I have ever felt on earth since I was born. Time and time again in my life when faced with it I have reacted with anger because I felt like there is never a good reason to lie. Me growing as a person I have learn to appreciate the truth as to be more valuable than money at times. Over the last year I have noticed when in public people (Caucasian people) speak to me when the look on their face told me they do not really want to speak to me. Leaving me to think the only reason why they spoke was because of their job required them to do so, or because they do not want to get looked at as being racist. When honestly I would respect a person more if they just did not speak to me verse being dishonest about their initial thoughts of me in their presence. Realizing my flaws I feel like I dropped the ball on asking if they truly felt the way I "thought" they felt when i entered the room. (Hopeful I will get a honest answer. And when I do I will let it be known what it was.)
Which I speak from my honest opinion is that most people are scared to ask how others feel because of the risk of backlash. Which can be a barrier to and for communication to make a connection. Communication of my 25 years of being alive I have seen it being both slow and instant. I remember in the 90's dealing with Dialup Connection, going from Cassette Tapes and VHS, to CD Players that stopped every time they were bumped and Dvd's. Having more than one line on a house phone was the luxury inside of a household. When cell phones did not exist in a household, let alone "kids" having cell phones. When calling "Long Distance" calls did not happen unless you used a Calling Card. When each text message was no less than .50 cents to make. (if it didn't cost even more.) "The Land Of Patience". When people were special because they knew a skill that took time to learn which included them having to find the person who knew the knowledge. When you had to go to the library to read and gain knowledge outside school. Everything in existence took time. Which is why I believe that everything being so fast has trained us to believe that everything must happen at a fast rate and if not then it is a failure. I honestly believe that things have progress a great amount to the point that get goes unnoticed. I believe racism hasn't improved or failed. I believe it's on the fence and its going in a positive direction. It's going to take love to bring it together. Which I believe its why I am so torn about the Charleston shooting that took place in a church. It was truly a act of hate. It makes me sad every time I think about it because it was violence from a vulnerable place. A place with no security to defend the innocent. We can all speak on what we would have did but with love I believe the people in that church did everything right. Something I don't think we will ever have a answer for. Which sends me to list another video I watched to find out answers.
